Monday, 24 October 2011

Half term is finally here...

...and I'm finally back home in sunny Devon with my friends and family. I had a lovely weekend, almost too lovely in fact because it is actually making me more homesick than ever (which might sound odd given that I am home) and I'm now dreading having to go back to London on Wednesday. I know it sounds stupid to miss this place when I had been counting down the days before I moved away pretty much since the age of 8, but I guess whilst this place still is and always will be a shit-hole, the people here are amazing. My family and friends are what I miss really, and I guess it doesn't help that I don't really have any friends in London yet and, although I know that will eventually change, it's still not the same.

Although now I think about it, it's not like I have time for friends and family when I'm in London anyway! I'm still pulling 12 hour days at school and whilst that may seem insane and like I should be stressed, I'm really not. The truth is, if I didn't need food and sleep I would happily work 24 hours a day and I wouldn't moan because I love every fricking second of it. I love my class, I love my school, I even love all the paperwork because I am just that much of a nerd. It really is my dream job, everything I knew it would be.

The only slight downside is that I've gotten very thin again and my size 8 trousers are hanging off me for the first time since I was 16. I'm back down to 8st 2 again (I'm 5ft 8) and whilst most people will hate me for being one of those people who finds it hard to keep weight on, this is pretty bad even by my standards. I do eat despite being busy (and I eat a lot, I always have done), but I think the stress is burning off as many calories as I eat and maybe I need to start eating bigger portions? I don't know how to sort it out, because it's not like the stress will ease at school what with Ofsted due any day now and I've been eating chocolate like never before to have enough wrappers to decorate my classroom for our new topic (which is chocolate, obviously!) so it's not like I'm not eating enough fat.

Any ideas? Someone make me hungry!


Michaela said...

Saying "Hi" from Mingle Monday! My job requires some crazy hours and sometimes a lot of stress too, so I know how you feel! Hang in there, and hopefully the balance of work and fun will come about!


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